I used to have the greatest expectations for motherhood. Who am I kidding?! I still have great expectations for my journey as a mother. High expectations from such monstrous cliffs I often fall.
- The laundry is caught up but my children are overlooked.
- Dinner is amazing but the kitchen is a wreck.
- My children are happy but I’m worn out.
- I’m succeeding at my job but I have no deep relationships.
It’s a pendulum swing and I find it very difficult to find an even rhythm between all the various hats I wear and feel that I should wear well.
I know I’m not alone. I know this struggle is not unusual. It’s just life.
And it is a beautiful life if I will allow myself to be okay with overflowing dishes. I can find beauty in a night where my children eat microwaved waffles instead of the nutritious meal they ought to have. I may let my co-workers down here and there but I’ll also have days where I feel like I’ve really brought something of great value to my team.
If I could let go of the perfectionistic need to do all things well and without help perhaps I could enjoy the living going on around me in the contagious laughter of my daughter or get caught up in the super hero imagination of my child. Maybe I could learn a thing or two about those with whom I work. Maybe if I let the mom I passed in the hall help me get my children to their classes perhaps I could make a new friend.
Life is beautiful but it has to be taken in one breath at a time. One step at a time. One moment at a time.
This post is part of a 31 day movement. You can learn more about it here but the gist of it is that I take 5 minutes to write on a one word prompt that is provided following a theme that I have chosen. My theme is The Mom Life. So every post will center around my life and experiences as a mom and what comes to mind when I think about the prompt given. Hope you enjoy following my writing journey as much as I will love crafting the words.