Steady Me

Yesterday I spent an hour holding both of my children.


My three year old was having a moment that was lasting an eternity and my almost one year old was not interested in tummy time. And so I would hold one, while the other cried and then put him down and pick her up only to change the pitch of the tears. There were a few moments where I successfully held both (although Dom was not very happy about it and tried to push Charlee out of my lap).

This scene took place after a most amazing day at work. I checked EVERYTHING off of my To Do List, had some amazing conversations, a few productive meetings. Just a good day. And then this.

It was like  walking on cloud nine only to lose my footing and fall flat on my face.

There’s a very popular song around lately by the group Hillsong United called Oceans. I think most would agree that the chorus is the part with which most people resonate:

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior

It’s an inspiring set of words. Going to a place in our walk with the Lord where we’ve never been before.  Trust without borders? Awesomeness.

I love adventures. Change is awesome to me. Transitions are pretty cool. Means something new is on the horizon. But adventures, changes, transitions also have dips and valleys.

 It was yesterday, as I had this amazing song on replay, that I heard a line in the song that I had not connected with before:

You’ve never failed and You won’t start now

I forget that valleys often precede mountains. And those high times can have an unsuspecting drop off. But one thing remains the same regardless of the height of my life’s tide:

Deuteronomy 31:6 (NLV) says:

So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the LORD your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you.”

He won’t leave me. Even when I feel alone. Even when the tears come and it feels like I’ve been abandoned. He’s still there holding me as I held my children with tears streaming down in the middle of an emotional moment.

He has never let me down. And he won’t start now.